I watched my mother preparing baby bottles at four in the morning, her body visibly trembling from exhaustion.
I watched her holding baby Hannah close to her chest while her other hand squeezed her abdomen in obvious agony.
I watched her vomiting silently into the kitchen sink while we were at work.
I watched her sitting on the living room floor weeping quietly whenever she thought no one was looking.
Then I stumbled upon the recording from that very afternoon.
Baby Hannah had started choking while eating her soft fruit puree.
My mother sprinted across the room, lifted the child, and expertly patted her back until the baby breathed normally again.
Right after saving my daughter’s life, my mother collapsed heavily against the living room wall in total exhaustion.
Her shirt accidentally pulled up as she struggled to catch her breath.
I saw a clear medical bag taped securely to her lower right abdomen.
A massive surgical incision was visible right beneath the dynamic plastic pouch.
There was no secret pregnancy at all.
I turned the volume up to maximum on my computer screen.
My mother was sitting on the floor alone, gasping for air, and whispered to herself.
“Just hold on a little longer, Abigail,” she murmured in a broken voice. “Just until Claire finishes her big work project, because you cannot cause any problems for her right now.”
My legs completely gave out beneath me, and I collapsed onto the floor in total shock.
I had just viciously accused my sweet mother of hiding an embarrassing affair, while she was secretly suffering from a terrible illness just to protect my peace of mind.
I still had no idea what horrifying truth I was about to discover next.
PART 2
I scrambled off the floor and ran straight to my mother’s bedroom door.
“Mom, please open the door right now!” I sobbed, pounding my fists against the wood.
There was no answer from inside the room.
I banged on the door again, completely terrified.
I turned around and saw Christopher standing at the end of the hallway with sleeping Hannah in his arms.
The strange look on his face told me everything I needed to know.
“You knew about this whole thing, didn’t you?” I asked him with a trembling voice.
He slowly lowered his eyes to the floor.
“I did not know everything, Claire,” he confessed softly.
I felt a sharp wave of betrayal washing over me.
“What exactly did you know, Christopher?” I demanded.
“A few weeks ago, I found blood on a bath towel in the laundry room, and your mother begged me not to tell you,” he explained quietly.
“And you actually agreed to keep that secret from me?” I cried out.
“She told me she was already seeing a specialist in town, and she said you were about to present your big corporate project and would drop everything if you found out,” he replied defensively.
My eyes burned with hot tears as I glared at him.
“Did you see her struggling like that more often?” I asked.
Christopher remained completely silent for a long moment.
“Answer me, how many times did you see her in pain?” I pressed.
“Several times,” he whispered softly.
I wanted to throw all my anger and blame onto my husband in that moment.
Then I suddenly remembered all the times I had personally seen my mother clutching her lower back in discomfort.
I remembered every single evening when she politely said she was not hungry for dinner.
I remembered how every single night when I arrived home from work, my very first questions were always administrative.
“Has Hannah eaten her dinner yet?” I would ask.
“Did you remember to sterilize the baby bottles?” I would check.
“Can you please stay an extra hour tomorrow because I have a late meeting?” I would request.
Not once did I ever stop to ask her the simplest question: “Mom, are you okay?”
I pushed open her bedroom door without waiting any longer.
My mother was sitting quietly on the edge of the mattress, looking extraordinarily small and fragile under the dim light.
I dropped to my knees directly in front of her.
“I saw the security camera footage, Mom,” I wept.
She quickly averted her eyes from mine.
“Mom, please tell me what is wrong with you,” I begged.
“It is nothing that I cannot handle on my own,” she replied stubbornly.
“Please do not ever say that to me again,” I cried, taking her cold hands in mine.
Her thick wall of silence finally broke down, and tears streamed down her wrinkled cheeks.
“It is cancer,” she whispered softly.
That single awful word stripped away my career, my corporate project, and my ridiculous accusations in less than a second.
“Where is it located?” I asked, my voice cracking.
“In my colon,” she answered flatly.
“How long have you known about this?” I questioned.
It took her a painful moment to gather the strength to respond.
“I was officially diagnosed almost a year ago,” she revealed.
I froze completely on the floor.
“A whole year ago? But you came to live with us six months ago!” I exclaimed in utter confusion.
My mother offered a sad smile that I will never be able to erase from my memory.
“That is the exact reason why I came to Atlanta, sweetie,” she confessed.
“What do you mean by that?” I asked.