The nurse placed my surviving baby in my arms and leaned closer. “Watch the video I sent you,” she whispered. Suddenly, I had questions about my husband.

Then he buried his face in my shoulder, and I cried with him. I thought we were grieving together.

For the next two days, Mark barely left the hospital. He brought me flowers. He helped me sit up. Everyone kept telling me what an amazing husband and father he was. I believed them.

Then, on the morning the NICU finally cleared our baby to stay in my room, a nurse named Judy wheeled him in. She smiled at Mark. “Congratulations,” she said.

Then she leaned over my son, adjusting his blanket. Without looking at me, she whispered under her breath, “Don’t react. Just smile. I sent something to your phone.”

My heart skipped. She gently placed my son into my arms, then leaned closer.