“I know, and I am so sorry,” Brenda sobbed.
“What were you actually trying to say?” I asked her.
“That I recognized the mark,” Brenda replied softly. “That there might be a dangerous medical history you needed to check. And that telling you why meant finally admitting everything I had hidden from you for decades.”
Lucas looked down at the photograph again, his finger tracing the outline of the young woman’s face. “I kept telling myself I was protecting you by keeping the secret,” Brenda said quietly.
“You had decades to tell me the truth,” Lucas pointed out, his tone empty of emotion.
“I know,” Brenda whispered.
“No,” Lucas snapped instantly. “Don’t keep saying ‘I know’ like it fixes anything.”
“It doesn’t fix it,” Brenda agreed, looking down at her lap. “I kept telling myself I was protecting you. Really, I was just protecting myself from what you might feel about me if you found out.”
There was nothing kind left to say that wouldn’t undeservedly soften what she had just admitted. Lucas said nothing at all. Neither did I.
When Maya and I were discharged to come home two days later, she was still our bright, healthy baby girl. But now her pediatrician had a crucial family-history question to investigate that they never would have known to ask before Brenda’s dramatic hospital room confession.
Brenda remembered the name of an old town, a former residential address, and the full names of Evelyn’s parents. Lucas could not let the rest of the truth go, and neither could I.
We spent hours searching through a few dusty boxes in Brenda’s attic until Lucas finally found an old Christmas card with a return address printed on the back. An older relative listed in a public registry recognized her maiden name and gave us enough details to trace Evelyn from there.
She was still alive, living just a few hours away. Lucas got her phone number, but he stared at the digits on his screen for three straight days without pressing call.
She lived about four hours away in a neighboring state. On the fourth night, Lucas set his phone down on the kitchen counter and sighed heavily. “Maybe I shouldn’t call her,” he said.
“Why not?” I asked, placing a hand on his back.
“Because I’m angry,” Lucas confessed. “What if meeting her makes everything so much worse?”
“Are you angry at Evelyn, or are you angry at Brenda?” I asked gently.
“I don’t know,” Lucas admitted. “What if meeting her makes everything worse?”
“It might,” I said honestly.
“Thanks, that’s very helpful,” Lucas chuckled weakly.
“I’m serious,” I continued softly. “You don’t owe anyone a dramatic family reunion. But if you want to know where you came from, and what medical history actually belongs to you and Maya, that is a completely different question.”
The next morning, Lucas picked up his phone and made the call. A week later, we drove the four hours to go meet Evelyn in person. Lucas had shockingly asked Brenda to come along with us in the car as well.
“If I’m going to hear what actually happened back then,” Lucas told Brenda before we left, “I want both of you in the exact same room together. No more separate versions of my life.”