After something unexpected happened to our daughter, my husband wanted to control every detail. That was when I started asking questions.

I told her he did not have access to her room.

Then she asked about Diane.

I told her the same thing.

Only then did she close her eyes again.

The police arranged for a child interviewer to speak with her when she was physically able. I wanted to sit beside her, but the interviewer explained that my daughter needed space to answer without worrying about my reactions.

Every instinct in me wanted to refuse.

My daughter surprised me.

“I can do it,” she said.

So I waited outside.

Nearly two hours later, she came out exhausted but upright in the wheelchair, one hand resting protectively near the brace on her leg.

She did not tell me everything she had said.

I didn’t ask.

That evening, an officer drove me back to our house so I could collect clothes, toiletries, her stuffed rabbit, and a few things she wanted from her room.

The house looked almost exactly as we had left it.

That was somehow worse than if it had been destroyed.

There was still a dish towel hanging from the oven handle. Her math worksheet was on the counter. One of my husband’s coffee mugs sat in the sink.

I picked it up, stared at it, and put it back.

Upstairs, I packed sweatpants, soft shirts, chargers, and the ridiculous purple socks my daughter wore whenever she was sick. Then I found a folded school paper tucked beneath a book on her desk.

It was an appointment slip from the school counselor.

The meeting had been scheduled for the morning after the attack.

My hands started shaking.