Callum and I did not do things like this. We did not exchange secret notes with strangers, we did not keep tiny keys from one another, and we certainly did not use the word ‘she’ to describe me while I was sleeping a few feet away.
My fingers trembled as I unfolded the store receipt to see where it came from. It was from a place called Sterling & Sons Jewelers, located at an address on the other side of town.
The date was printed as three weeks before our wedding day. The final amount listed was so large that it could have easily bought a reliable used car.
My stomach dropped as I stared at the numbers printed on the paper. I pulled out my phone and called Felicia immediately, and she answered on the second ring while sounding half asleep.
“Valerie, it is eight in the morning, so please tell me you are calling to brag about marital sex,” she said into the phone.
“I found something disturbing in Callum’s tuxedo pocket,” I whispered into the receiver.
Her grogginess disappeared instantly as she sat up. “Define something right now.”
“I found a key, a note that I think is from another woman signed with the letter R, and a jeweler’s receipt from three weeks ago for an amount that could buy a car,” I told her.
There was a long pause on the line before she spoke carefully. “Okay, breathe deep, my friend, and tell me what exactly the note says.”
I read the message to her in a low whisper so no one in the hall would hear me. “It says thank you for keeping this between us, and she can never know until the right moment, signed R.”
“Okay, I hear you,” Felicia said softly.
“Felicia, he had this tucked in his pocket on our wedding night while he was standing there saying vows to me,” I said, feeling my voice break.
“Stop right there and stop spiraling,” she instructed me firmly.
“I am not spiraling,” I argued back.
“You are absolutely spiraling,” she corrected me without hesitation.
“I have a pretty good guess about what this means,” I insisted.
“You have a bad guess,” she corrected me gently. “You have a scared guess, and there is a huge difference between the two.”
I pressed the tiny brass key against my lips as I listened to her. The red ribbon attached to it was soft and worn, as though someone had handled it many times before.
“Who do we know whose name starts with the letter R?” Felicia asked me thoughtfully.
“Nobody,” I replied, running through every name I knew. “Not in his family and not in mine, because his mother is Beth and his sister is Kayla, so I do not know a single R.”
“Could it be an ex-girlfriend?” she suggested cautiously.
“He has not spoken to an ex in years, and you know that as well as I do,” I said.
“Okay, then what about the receipt, and what did he actually buy?” she asked.
“I do not know because it does not list the item,” I explained. “It just shows the large amount and the store name, Sterling & Sons.”
“I have never heard of that store,” Felicia admitted.
“Neither have I, and that is the whole point,” I said, feeling the panic rising again. “Callum has never mentioned that place, and we usually tell each other when we buy socks.”
I heard the bedsheets rustling on her end as she apparently sat upright in her bed. “Valerie, listen to me carefully because I know how your brain works when you get overwhelmed.”
“I am completely fine,” I claimed, trying to sound composed.
“Do not go back into that room and shake him awake in a panic,” she warned me.
“I was not going to do that,” I lied.
“You were absolutely going to do that,” she countered.
I laughed, but the sound came out forced and tight in my throat. “Okay, I admit that I was going to do that.”
“Ask him calmly after you have some coffee,” Felicia advised me patiently. “Do not accuse him of anything, just watch his face because Callum is a terrible liar, and you know he could not even keep our surprise party a secret.”
“Which is exactly why this is so weird,” I pointed out. “He cannot keep secrets, yet here we are dealing with one.”
“It means either it is something big and awful, or it is something big and not awful at all,” she said. “Both outcomes are completely possible right now.”
I stared down at the small key lying in my hand. It was far too small for a normal house door and seemed designed for a tiny lock, like a jewelry box or a small cash drawer.
“Felicia, what if I just married a man that I do not actually know?” I asked softly.
“You dated him for four long years, so you know who he is,” she insisted firmly.
“People manage to hide huge things for years all the time,” I argued.
“You know Callum,” she repeated with conviction.
“Maybe not this version of Callum,” I whispered back.
“Valerie, come on, you know it is not like him,” she said, trying to reassure me.
I wanted to believe her with all my heart. I wanted to walk back into that suite, slide beneath the warm covers, and pretend I had never checked the pockets of that tuxedo.
PART 3
“I cannot wait until we reach Costa Rica to ask him,” I said into the phone. “I cannot sit on a long flight with this sitting in my bag.”
“Then do not wait,” Felicia urged me gently. “But remember to ask him, not declare things.”
“Ask, do not declare,” I repeated to myself as a reminder.
“Exactly,” she confirmed through the receiver.
I nodded my head even though she could not see me through the phone line. “And Felicia?”
“Yeah, what is it?” she asked.
“Whatever the truth is, I will call you right after we talk,” I promised her.
“I do not care if you are crying or laughing, I just need to know you are okay,” she said.
“I promise I will call,” I said before hanging up the phone.
For a long moment, I remained standing in the empty hallway, holding the warm key in one hand and the receipt in the other while my new wedding ring caught the light overhead. Then I stood up straight and decided it was time to face my husband.