I remembered Michael joking that he’d made one of the legs too short.
“Your dad would’ve loved seeing this.”
Nathan searched my expression.
“Why didn’t you ever tell me about it?”
I had no answer. Frank spoke from the doorway instead.
“There’s something else Nathan hasn’t told you, Laura.”
***
Frank had found a smaller place to live and planned to sell the family house because maintaining it alone had become too difficult. He’d told Nathan in August.
“That’s why we started coming every weekend,” Nathan said. “Grandpa’s moving in a few weeks.”
I looked at Michael’s handmade furniture, the shelves, and the tools scattered around the workshop.
“You’ve been trying to save all this?”
Nathan nodded.
“I thought if we worked fast enough, we could finish everything before Grandpa moved.”
“We don’t have room for an entire workshop.”
I saw his face close off.
“Of course we don’t, Mom. Of course.”
“Nathan, I didn’t mean…”
“You just got here, Mom. You don’t get to show up now and pretend you were part of this.”
I wanted to explain my grief, but tried another approach.
“What matters most to you? We can bring some things home.”
He glanced helplessly around the room.
“I can’t choose.”
“Then we won’t decide today.”
Nathan walked out. When Frank moved to follow, I gently stopped him.
“Give him a minute.”
***
Denise phoned that evening.
“Cole’s upset. He shouldn’t have had to choose between Nathan and telling me the truth.”
“You’re right. I’ll talk to Nathan.”
Afterward, I knocked on my son’s bedroom door.
“Can we talk?”
He was sitting on his bed.
“If it’s another lecture, I’m tired.”
“It’s about Cole.”
He stared at the floor.
“I know. I shouldn’t have made him lie.”
“You owe him an apology. And no sleepovers until we’ve rebuilt some trust.”
“I understand.”
I sat down beside him.
“There’s something I owe you an apology for too.”
Surprise flickered across his face.
“After Dad died, I thought keeping our lives normal would help us both.”
“You stopped talking about him.”
“I did.”
“Why?”
“Because every conversation reminded me he wasn’t coming home.”
He folded his hands together.
“Sometimes I forget what Dad sounded like.”
His confession hurt more than I could say.
“Grandpa tells me stories,” he continued. “He remembers things I don’t.”
“I should’ve told you stories too.”
“You still could.”
I got to my feet.
“Come with me.”
***
At the back of my bedroom closet sat a box I hadn’t opened since Michael’s death. I brought it to the bed and removed the lid. Inside lay his notebook, a photograph, his broken watch, and some folded papers.
Nathan picked up a sketch of the rocking chair. Written in Michael’s handwriting across one corner were the words:
“For our little boy.”
He gently followed the letters with his finger.
“He made this for me?”
“Before you were born.”
“Why didn’t you show me?”
“Because I couldn’t bring myself to look through any of it.”
Nathan looked down at the page.
“I wasn’t trying to hurt you, Mom.”
“I understand that. But you frightened us, and you pulled Cole into the lie.”
“I thought you’d make me stop going.”
I acknowledged the painful truth.
“I gave you reasons to think that.”
He noticed the photograph I held. In it, Michael stood in our kitchen holding a pie he’d badly burned.
“Your dad once tried making Thanksgiving dessert without following the recipe. It was a pumpkin pie. Or it was supposed to be.”
Nathan laughed.
“Was it terrible?”
“Awful. He insisted the black crust was intentional.”
He gazed at his father’s smiling face.
“Tell me something else.”
I settled beside him and began sharing memories I’d kept locked away, without inventing another excuse to end the conversation.