That word hurt more than any reproach.
“When I found out I was pregnant, we were already separated,” she went on. “I tried to call you, but your number had changed. I sent letters to your office and I went to your old building in person.”
“My mother…”
“Your mother met with me. She told me you’d started seeing someone in your circle and didn’t want me bothering you again.”
Preston shook his head slowly. “There was never another woman.”
“That doesn’t matter now.”
“It matters to me.”
Naomi took a deep breath. “That afternoon, I still thought it might be a misunderstanding. So I tried again when the boys were born.”
She took out another sheet, a request for contact that she had submitted through the firm handling their separation.
“Your attorney at the time answered that any communication had to go through legal channels and that you didn’t want personal contact.”
Preston recognized the signature of his company’s former general counsel, Gordon Pierce. His mother had recommended him to handle the divorce, and Preston had signed every document without asking many questions.
“Why didn’t you go to court afterward?” he asked carefully.
Naomi lifted her head. “Because I had two babies in the hospital, a job I needed to go back to, and doctors telling me Eli might have lasting complications. I didn’t have the strength for a legal battle against your family.”
A silence followed.
“And there was another reason.”
“What?”
“I was afraid you would try to take custody, using your money and your lawyers. Your mother warned me about it, in so many words.”
Preston felt a deep shame. “I would never have tried to separate you from them.”
Naomi looked at him sadly. “The man I knew wouldn’t have thrown his wife out of the house for refusing to quit her job, either. But it happened.”
Her answer reminded him of something he had avoided for years. The failure of his marriage hadn’t begun with his mother’s lies. It had begun long before. With the dinners he showed up late to. With the forgotten anniversaries. With all the times he had let his mother belittle Naomi’s profession. With that argument where he had put his career ahead of everything.
“You’re right,” he admitted. “I was a terrible husband even before my mother got involved.”
Naomi looked down. “I didn’t need a millionaire, Preston. I needed a partner.”
He wanted to move closer but stayed in his seat. “I can’t change what I did. But I want to know my sons, if they’re mine and if you’re willing.”
“They’re yours, Preston. I never doubted it.”
“Then I want to take responsibility.”
She studied him for a few seconds. “I don’t want you showing up with expensive toys and then disappearing when you get busy again.”
“I won’t.”
“The boys need stability. Eli wakes up some nights because he still remembers the hospital visits. Theo pretends to be brave, but he cries when he thinks nobody’s listening.”
Preston swallowed. “I want to really know them. What they like, what scares them, what they dream about.”
Naomi thought it over. Finally she said, “We can start slowly. But first we have to do this correctly. We’ll need professional guidance to explain to them who you are and to sort out our legal situation.”
Preston nodded. “Whatever it takes.”
Just then Theo walked into the kitchen holding a sheet of paper. “Preston, look. I made a drawing.”
It was a huge house with blue windows and a garden. Out front stood three figures: a woman and two boys. Preston felt an unexpected pain at realizing he wasn’t in it.
“It’s beautiful,” he said.
Theo beamed. “It’s our house when we grow up. Eli says he’s going to have an observatory to look at the stars.”
“And what do you want?”
“A dog. A really, really big one.”
Preston laughed through his tears. “That sounds like a great idea.”
“Can you come another day and teach us airplanes?”
He looked at Naomi. She nodded, almost imperceptibly.
“Of course,” Preston said. “If you’d like, I could come Saturday.”
Theo ran off to tell his brother.
That afternoon, Preston went to his mother’s house. Constance received him in her marble sitting room, surrounded by family photographs and antique furniture.
“Did you close the deal?” she asked at once.
“No.”
“Preston, you can’t afford to lose a deal like that.”
“I found out I have two sons.”
Constance set her cup down on its saucer. “I see you’ve spoken with Naomi.”
“You knew from the beginning.”
His mother said nothing.
“You knew she was pregnant. You knew the boys had been born. And you let me believe Naomi had vanished because she wanted nothing to do with me.”
Constance stood. “I did what was necessary to protect our family’s wealth.”
Preston looked at her as though she were a stranger. “They were never a threat to our wealth. They were your grandsons.”
“That woman never would have fit into our family.”
“She was my wife.”
“A high school teacher who didn’t understand the world you lived in.”
Preston took out the photograph of the premature babies and laid it on the table. “Look at them.”
Constance turned her eyes away.
“Mother, look at them. Please.”
Finally she did. Preston pointed to Eli. “This is your grandson. He spent weeks in an incubator. Naomi sat beside him while I was signing contracts in London, thinking my life was perfect.”