“Absolutely not,” I said. “You can call him whatever feels comfortable.”
That night, Danielle called. Adrian had contacted her six months after I left Minneapolis. He had asked whether I had delivered safely, but he believed the baby had been a boy. He had also been told there had been complications.
I sat beside Nora’s bed, listening to her breathe softly beneath the blanket.
“Why would he think that?” I asked.
Danielle didn’t know. She reminded me that she had followed my instructions not to share information with Adrian unless legally required. He had never filed a request through the courts.
After our call, Adrian sent me a message.
I never knew you had a daughter. I was told the baby had not survived.
I read it several times. Then I asked who had told him.
Your mother.
The answer did not excuse his leaving me in labor, or his choosing Meredith’s room over mine. It did change what I understood about the years that followed.
Adrian said my mother had shown him a hospital form and told him I had asked not to see him. He had believed her. I asked him to send a photograph of the document, and when it arrived, I sent it to Danielle.
The form had been signed by Dr. Kendra Hayes, the obstetrician who delivered Nora. A handwritten note referred to my condition, but the rest of the page was obscured. At the bottom was a notation that the infant’s condition had been given to a designated family representative.
Danielle said she would look into it.
The next morning, she arrived at the hotel with coffee and a folder. She had reviewed my old divorce file and found that Nora’s birth certificate had been registered four days after the birth by someone named Lillian Foster, Meredith’s mother and a patient-services administrator at the hospital.
That alone proved nothing, but then the hospital archive confirmed that Nora’s records had been amended two days after her birth. There was also a restriction on disclosing information to Adrian, requested by a family representative.
The name in the record was my mother, Evelyn Whitaker.
She had asked the hospital to keep Nora’s information from Adrian. Two days after Nora was born, she had told him the baby had not survived.
Danielle and I sat with the document between us, trying to understand how one family could have taken so many decisions out of my hands.
A letter from Meredith soon added another piece. Adrian had found it among his old papers. She had written it two days after Nora’s birth, asking him to stop asking questions about my baby because further inquiries would make things worse for everyone.
Danielle read the note twice.
“We need to talk to Meredith,” she said.
A Beginning Beneath the Stars
We drove to Meredith’s mother’s home in Winnetka. Adrian was already there, waiting outside. I asked Danielle to come with me, and she did.
Adrian looked exhausted.
“Your mother told me Nora hadn’t survived,” he said. “She said you were recovering and didn’t want to see me.”
“I never said that.”
“I know that now.”
“You still left.”
“Yes.”
“You still chose Meredith.”
“Yes.”
He didn’t ask me to excuse him. For the first time, he seemed to understand that a lie someone told him did not erase the choices he had made himself.
Inside, Meredith stood near the fireplace. Her mother, Lillian, sat in an armchair. Danielle opened her folder and asked for the truth.
Meredith admitted she had known that information about Nora had been restricted. She said her mother had shown her an amended hospital record indicating that Nora was alive but that Adrian was not to receive information without my written permission. My mother had told Adrian that the baby had not survived. Meredith had known enough to question the story, and she had stayed silent.
“Why did you tell him to stop asking?” Adrian asked.
Meredith lowered her eyes.
“I was afraid of losing everything. I thought if the truth came out, I’d lose you and my son.”