“How did that feel?”
She thought about it seriously. “Kind of good.”
Part 7
In April, Willa asked if we could visit the pawn shop.
“Honey, it’s been months,” I said. “Mr. Harmon sold it a long time ago.”
“He said he’d hold it,” she said. “I heard you tell Grandma.”
I didn’t want her disappointed. I didn’t want to stand in that shop and remember sliding my grandmother’s locket across the counter. But my mother looked at me over Willa’s head and said, “Let’s go.”
Walt Harmon recognized me the moment the bell rang over the door.
“Well, look who it is,” he said, coming around the counter. He glanced at Willa, who was wearing the navy shirt with the silver moon. She’d insisted. “And you must be the young lady from the newspaper.”
He pulled a folded copy of the Knoxville News Sentinel from beneath the register. Page three: Eight-Year-Old’s Recording Exposes Father’s Custody Scheme. No names, but the moon shirt and the secret pocket were right there in the second paragraph.
“I knew it was you,” Walt said. “You told me about that shirt when you pawned the locket.”
He unlocked a glass case behind the counter and reached inside. When he turned around, he was holding my grandmother’s gold locket, the little paper tag still tied to the chain.
I couldn’t speak.
“I said I’d hold it as long as I could,” Walt said. “Turned out I could hold it a good while.”
“I can’t afford it yet,” I managed. “Not until the back support comes through.”
Willa reached into her jeans pocket and pulled out a plastic sandwich bag of crumpled dollar bills, a few fives, and a great many quarters. She set it on the counter.
“Sixty-three dollars and seventy-five cents,” she said. “Grandma helped me count. I did chores and sold my old Legos at school.” She looked up at him. “Is that enough to start?”
Walt looked at the bag. Then at my mother, who was crying. Then at me, who was crying harder.
“Young lady,” he said, “that’s exactly enough.”
He put the locket in her small hand.
“Mr. Harmon, it was worth far more than that,” I protested. “I took a hundred and eighty.”
“You know what this shop is called?” he asked.
“Second Chances,” Willa said.
“That’s right. And this girl stood up in a courtroom and told the truth when every grown-up in the room was lying. I’d say she’s earned one.”
Willa turned to me, holding up the locket. “Mom, can I give it to you on Mother’s Day? I want to wrap it.”
I knelt on the floor of that pawn shop and hugged her until she squeaked.
Final Part
On Mother’s Day, Willa handed me a box wrapped in blue paper covered in silver stars she had drawn herself. Inside was my grandmother’s locket, polished with my mother’s jewelry cloth until it gleamed.
The two old wedding photographs were still there, my grandparents in 1952, young and holding on to each other. Behind them, tucked into the narrow space, was a scrap of notebook paper cut very small. In her careful handwriting, it read:
Mom loves me more than all the stars. That’s the truth. I checked.
I read it three times. Then I folded it back, closed the locket, and fastened it around my neck. I haven’t taken it off since.
It has been a year now. I cut back to three nights a week at Riverview Tower, because with the support Reid pays, I no longer need more. I’m taking night classes at Pellissippi State to become a paralegal, and Monica says she’ll hire me when I graduate. We moved out of the apartment above the bakery last summer, not because anything was wrong with it, but because Willa needed her own room and my mother needed a real bed. Our little rented house has a backyard and a big oak tree. Mrs. Kessler still sends a box of cinnamon rolls every Saturday. She says the bakery is too quiet without us.
Reid’s criminal case ended with probation and community service. He sold the townhouse. He sold the watch, too. His visits are no longer supervised, and last month he took Willa to a star party at the observatory, where they looked at Saturn through a telescope. She talked about it for three days.
“Dad says he’s sorry about the shirt every single time,” she told me. “Do you think he means it?”
“What do you think?”
She considered it the way she considers everything, slowly and seriously. “I think he’s trying. I think being sorry takes practice.”
The navy shirt doesn’t fit her anymore. She grew three inches this year, and the sleeves stop at her elbows. The stains never came out, and she wouldn’t let me give it away. So my mother took it to the living room with her sewing kit and worked all weekend. When she finished, the shirt had become a small pillow, the silver moon right in the center, the faded stains still visible. On the back, in silver thread, she’d stitched three words.
Not dirty. Loved.
The pillow sits on Willa’s bed now, beside her stuffed rabbit and the glow-in-the-dark constellation book. The secret pocket is still there, behind the moon.
Last night, I went in to check on her after she fell asleep. The paper stars on her ceiling glowed faintly. Her pillow had slipped to the floor, and when I picked it up, I felt something in the pocket.
I know I shouldn’t have looked. But I did.
It was a folded slip of paper in her handwriting, a little neater than last year’s.
Important things:
Mom.
Grandma.
Telling the truth even when you’re scared.
Saturn’s rings are made of ice.
I put it back exactly where I’d found it and tucked the pillow under her arm. Then I sat on the edge of her bed in the dark for a long time, one hand on my grandmother’s locket, watching my daughter breathe.
Reid had tried to prove I couldn’t take care of my child. But the smallest person in that courtroom knew the truth all along. She had carried it in a pocket behind a little silver moon, and when it mattered, she stood up.
THE END